“Little by little, I’m feeling like I’m getting trapped and muted.” Cardi B Gets Real about Self Doubt and Fears in Rolling Stone
All that glitters isn’t gold. Cardi B is arguably having one of the best years ever. Graduating from Love & Hip Hop NY to the world stage, she is living her wildest dreams. From her record breaking number one “Bodak Yellow” to getting engaged to fellow rapper Offset of Migos, Cardi has been winning all around. So with so many things to be thankful for, what could she possibly be worried about? As this month’s cover girl for Rolling Stone, Cardi gets real about life in the limelight.
“I used to tell myself that I will always be myself. Little by little, I’m feeling like I’m getting trapped and muted.”
Cardi B’s rise to fame is attributed in part to social media, but now it seems to be a double edge sword. From tweets calling women roaches to referring to Kim Jong Un as “Won Ton Soup”, Cardi finds herself being forced to delete tweets and censoring herself. Folks often ask:
“Can she make another hit, can she make another hit?”
She is very aware of the pressure to follow up the success of “Bodak Yellow” with something even bigger, and even questions her ability to do so.
“If you go broke and lose your career, it’s bad – and everybody is talkin’ sh*t about it! At least if you lose your 9-to-5 you don’t got millions of people judging you and talking sh*t while you lost your job.”
While Cardi’s upbeat personality makes her appear confident and secure in her own skin, she speaks freely about her doubts, fears and insecurities with fame.
“It’s not as fun to do music. My mind doesn’t flow as free ’cause I have so much on my mind.”
Though she referred to herself as a “negative person”, she is trying to be optimistic about the future.
“I cannot turn my life back around. I’m already a public figure, I’m famous. … It’s like, I might as well keep it going, might as well make the money. People are always going to talk sh*t – I cannot make myself unfamous.”
One of the reasons to love Cardi is her honesty. It’s refreshing for someone to be honest about fame and how it may not be all it’s cracked up to be.